A friend let me know that after 5 years cancer free, her breast cancer metastasized. She got this news a few years ago and hadn't told anyone - it kind of slipped out in conversation with me. She is doing well and her treatment doesn't even make her feel sick - I guess they've improved things over the years. She is living her life, and her doctor says she has no reason to think anything will change - just that she will be in treatment for the rest of her life.
Of course we all know this is a possibility. When I think about it - which I try not to - I feel like the axe is poised over my head, waiting until I least expect it. Each time I have unexplained pain, for instance.
I also firmly believe that God knows when my time is and there's nothing I can do to change it, that life is short and needs to be lived to its fullest regardless, making the most of my time here on earth. At my agm already over the top of the hill, anyway.
She isn't upset about it, and encouraged me to feel the same way. Overall I do, but it still makes me sad, a bit scared, and more determined than ever to make the decisions needed to live my best life.
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